better days

so i got this holter moniter yesterday to track the skipped beats and other weird stuff i was feeling in my chest.  even though my panic is sever and i really think im having a heart attack at the time, i dont think there is anything structurally wrong with my heart... or at least i want to believe that.  i think im just overly sensitive to everything i feel in my body.  but either way my new doctor wants to be really thorough to make sure no one was overlooking a really problem.  after all, she was the doctor that discovered my mom had cancer - she was the first doctor in 4 months to read my moms entire chart.  so if she wants to give me a monitor just in case, im ok with it.   problem is, now it brings more attention to my heart and its activity.  bleh  .. and the people who gave it to me said i have to wear it for 30 days!! so long.. but hopefully ill just get used to it really fast and not even know its there!    the only thing that bugs me is i have a sticker up on my collar bone and everytime i move my head or arm it pulls on the sticker just a lil so i just feel it all the time.  i wish i could just rip it off!

and on a happier note, im feeling happier! hehe ive been looking up lots of crafts and seeing friends, even with panic attacks here and there and ive just been feeling waaaay better which is super exciting.

my new favorite website is   More Design Please

its the perfect combo of art, crafts, food and decor.. alll things i loooooovee!  so check it out!
hopefully ill try one of the craft things soon

oh and rememeber that colorful egg garland i posted a few days ago?  ive been slowly making it and hopefully will finish it and hang it up today.. wohooo!

-whit

Crafting and watching anchorman with friends. Can't get much better


- love Whitney

Song

Deep inside of you - third eye blind


- love Whitney

I'm scared all the time


- love Whitney

Lazy Sunday

I'm really bummed that I'm not gonna see will this weekend. I think I put too much on that trip, when I feel stressed I was telling myself that it's ok I'll see will in a week. Now that in not all that stress and depression I was pushing off seems to be flooding back. It's more than that I cant see my friend, it's that I don't have something to look forward to.

And I wish I wasn't afraid to fly. Anyone have tips?


- love Whitney

Saturday morning cartoons!

.... or browsing the web obsessively.

Heres what i found today:

Hilarious Royal Wedding garb (i secretly want all the gloves though)








Fun totes with clever verbage

Printable tattoo paper

Cute Valentine cards

Colorful Easter garland! (i really want to make this today!!!)

Awesome Envelopes (not gonna lie, looks like alot of work :/ )

And this dress that im completely in love with

egh, ringing in my ears again.. 

AAANNNDD:  goals for today: 

1. do some cleaning
2. try 2 new recipes (im hooked on trying to find a good pad see ew recipe and creamed corn recipe) i know they dont go together but ive been having weird food cravings
3. do some homework to work ahead in anticipation of my possible trip up north
4. and lastly, finally make a work plan for the class that i have to take an incomplete in.  my teacher said she will only grant me an incomplete if i make a schedule of when things are do for the summer.  its stressful only because i feel like i really dont know what im doing in this project, i feel like im way over my head.  but i have to do it cause i really just want to graduate!!!! ugh

Out and about

saw this on Ryans drive way. it let me get sooo close!
- love Whitney