So I'm done. Being ignored is over. Efforts to manipulate or make me feel small are done. Hypocrisy is irritating
I've deleted them all out of my phone book. I threw the numbers away and didn't look back.
I'm mad
I worked for months trying to conduct a friendship by a certain set of rules that apparently apply only to me. I'm not upset about the change in status, upset that I feel used and that it was expected I wouldn't have feelings about it. I wouldn't be affected? Times that were deamed "busy", were they really?
I didnt get the decency or respect to Talk about our communication on this or reveal that some how the rules were called off. No, I've been living a tip toed life and news was nonchalantly dropped in a conversation. My feelings matter that little? You didn't think I'd care? Fine. Now I know what ur really busy with all the time.
I wrote this to vent. And to release it. I'm done
Time to move away and start over
I always dreamt of disappearing one day, deleting my phone and not telling anyone when I left. Then to live as just a memory. A fleeting thought now and again. Somehow that sounds blissful. I dunno if I'll do it, but that dream is there
- love Whitney
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