Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Moving forward

So I'm done. Being ignored is over. Efforts to manipulate or make me feel small are done. Hypocrisy is irritating

I've deleted them all out of my phone book. I threw the numbers away and didn't look back.

I'm mad
I worked for months trying to conduct a friendship by a certain set of rules that apparently apply only to me. I'm not upset about the change in status, upset that I feel used and that it was expected I wouldn't have feelings about it. I wouldn't be affected? Times that were deamed "busy", were they really?
I didnt get the decency or respect to Talk about our communication on this or reveal that some how the rules were called off. No, I've been living a tip toed life and news was nonchalantly dropped in a conversation. My feelings matter that little? You didn't think I'd care? Fine. Now I know what ur really busy with all the time.

I wrote this to vent. And to release it. I'm done

Time to move away and start over
I always dreamt of disappearing one day, deleting my phone and not telling anyone when I left. Then to live as just a memory. A fleeting thought now and again. Somehow that sounds blissful. I dunno if I'll do it, but that dream is there



- love Whitney

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