Monday, April 18, 2011

Song

Deep inside of you - third eye blind


- love Whitney

Sunday, April 17, 2011


I'm scared all the time


- love Whitney

Lazy Sunday

I'm really bummed that I'm not gonna see will this weekend. I think I put too much on that trip, when I feel stressed I was telling myself that it's ok I'll see will in a week. Now that in not all that stress and depression I was pushing off seems to be flooding back. It's more than that I cant see my friend, it's that I don't have something to look forward to.

And I wish I wasn't afraid to fly. Anyone have tips?


- love Whitney

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Saturday morning cartoons!

.... or browsing the web obsessively.

Heres what i found today:

Hilarious Royal Wedding garb (i secretly want all the gloves though)








Fun totes with clever verbage




Colorful Easter garland! (i really want to make this today!!!)

Awesome Envelopes (not gonna lie, looks like alot of work :/ )


And this dress that im completely in love with


egh, ringing in my ears again.. 

AAANNNDD:  goals for today: 
  1. do some cleaning
  2. try 2 new recipes (im hooked on trying to find a good pad see ew recipe and creamed corn recipe) i know they dont go together but ive been having weird food cravings
  3. do some homework to work ahead in anticipation of my possible trip up north
  4. and lastly, finally make a work plan for the class that i have to take an incomplete in.  my teacher said she will only grant me an incomplete if i make a schedule of when things are do for the summer.  its stressful only because i feel like i really dont know what im doing in this project, i feel like im way over my head.  but i have to do it cause i really just want to graduate!!!! ugh

Friday, April 15, 2011

Out and about













saw this on Ryans drive way. it let me get sooo close!

- love Whitney

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

I recently got some new nail polish colors so I've been going nuts!










Also I'm sitting in city council meeting for rancho cucamonga right now. My dad is playing a video tonight to uncover some foul play in city gov. My dad loves volunteerism and civic service as well as protesting and advocating for veteran support

Also April in rancho is child abuse prevention month. :(

- love Whitney

Location:Pretty nails and council meeting

Working out with anxiety

Omg best breakfast ever:
Peach light and fit yogurt
Half of a sliced banana cut into rounds
Spoonful of sugar free cool whip
Half cup multigrain cherrios

Sooo good and really good for u too


Also, big news I started working out yay!!
Except my anxiety has been waaay high. This perplexed me cause I've always heard exercise helps reduce anxiety. So what gives?

2 reasons why:
1. Things u feel when u exercise like increased heart rate, sweating, hard breathing, light headedness etc. Is super similar to a panic attack or other anxiety symptoms. Ur body has a memory and sees these things happen and connect them with anxiety. This can induce panic! What u need to do is work on telling urself that ur ok while u work out and (I think) that the more u do it your body will start to believe you and won't panic about it

2. Other reason is lactic acid build up. (can u tell I've been reading alot this morning). Studies have shown that people with high anxiety have higher levels of lactic acid in their body than others due to constant tense muscles and diet. Higher levels of lactic acid can actually increase anxiety and panic. So when we exercise and build up MORE lactic acid then we can be nervous for hours afterward. Crazy!!! So what can u do? Still figuring this out but some say to focus on light exercise only like walks etc. I'm hoping that the more I work out at moderate levels, my body will get in better shape ad produce less lactic acid so I'm gonna try to tough it out for a bit and see if it gets better. Other things that help is massage since it pushes lactic acid out of your muscles and changing diet. Apparently diets high in refined sugar, carbs and dairy and low in hydration can increase lactic acid in your body, so reducing these and drinking more water can decrease lactic acid and decrease ur anxiety.

Those are my tips.

I just got super bummed that I've been trying to get healthy and work out more but it's making my anxiety high. Arghhhh!


- love Whitney